I was in the library yesterday, dont ask me why, and i planned to get some work done (rly!!) but there were no available tables.
So i found a book and sat down to read till the skies turn dark and my toes were cold and my
It's quite long, but really, take time to read it :)
"Unhappy memories are persistent.
They're specific, and it's the details that refuse to leave us alone. Though a happy memory may stay with you just as long as one that makes you miserable, what you remember softens over time. What you recall is simply that you were happy, not necessarily the individual moments that brought about your joy.
But the memory of something painful does just the opposite. It retains its original shape, all bony fingers and pointy elbows. Everytime it returns, you get a quick poke in the eye or jab in the stomach. The memory of being unhappy has the power to hurt us long after the fact. We feel the injury anew each and everytime we think of it."
- Cameron Dokey, Belle.
I think what the author said is really true. After reading this, i realized that unhappy memories are not usually the opposite of happy memories. Painful memories are the opposite.
Can you remember the first time you scored an A for an exam, and how happy you were? Or is the pain you felt when you first failed one? Or which is more vivid, the day you got together with someone, or the day he/she made you cry?
I think, our hearts and minds remember hurt more easily then they remember happiness. And I think it's because that's what we do, to protect ourselves from getting hurt again. It's like how a child touches fire for the first time and he never does it again because his body and mind remembers the pain and tears.
Ahhhh okay is this too much? Hahah i don't think i come off as the type to think about such stuff right? :\
Oh well, this happens when you have too much time on your hands. Yesss ignoring the fact that i still had homework and packing to do hehe. But it was nice to just sit down and do something i wanted to do, instead of homework, even though yesterday felt so fruitless. But in another sense, i now know what it feels like for him to wait for me!
Anw time's running out. A quickie update here cos i'll be gone in Barcelona from 20th to 27th!! Hehe wish us luck for the Dance Prix! :D Hopefully, i'll be back with photos heheh this is gna be my first time to Europe!!! Zomg 14 hours' flight!!! Sexcitingggggg :D
But before that, hi everyone, espcially to seraphina lim jia ying, this is for you!! :)
You're the eeyore and im tigger ♥
xxxxxxx